Wednesday, June 19, 2024
Judges: Chapter 5
Tuesday, June 18, 2024
Judges 4: In Writing
If you go with me, I will go
And if you will not go with me, I won't go
but stand in place
mule-faced, kicking the floor
I said, Get dressed!
You say: You're not helping me.
I say, We'll be late.
you hold out your arms, so you do it.
Legs outstretched like a mannequin
knees locked unyielding
marionette with invisible strings
that twitch away from me.
No glory in this path
mouth twisted to rictus
coaxing, cajoling, screaming--
nothing helps.
All you want is to fall
burrow deep into the floor
I want to go back into your belly, you say.
I want to be inside.
But if they kill you, you add
I'll die too.
Sunday, June 16, 2024
Judges: Chapter 4
will topple down
and what is out
be gathered in.
Stand at the linen
Thursday, June 13, 2024
Judges 3: In writing
needle fluctuating round and round
the set point. No way
back to before
when your body was wholly
your own.
Look down
at mountains and troughs--
fleshy landscape of broken promises
to yourself. Your goal is
Today you will
cut out
cake. Sticky seduction
of sugar. Long nights.
The pull of sleep.
spreading like ripples.
All those months carrying
bear down on your bladder
the weakened sinews
weaving torso together
leave a groove down the center
separating before and after
Life made flesh--
weight of time and inertia.
It is hard, hard to rise
hard to pull yourself up by your arms
only to swallow
dagger and hilt
and feel the fat close on top of it.
Wednesday, June 12, 2024
Judges: Chapter 3
Tuesday, June 11, 2024
Judges 2: In Writing
Every day the sun rises
every day it sets
every day the waking, dressing
cook, feed
battle of the clothes: too short, too long,
I want sleeves
no sleeves
a jacket
a hat
3 changes, 4
dull pounding behind my eyes
the rhythm of the day,
Hold me, I want you to hold me.
I can't walk!
throwing youself on the sidewalk
legs drumming asphalt.
Sometimes I am patient.
Often I am not.
Breaking point, I grab you,
or walk away, say: I'm gone.
Sometimes I hold you.
Sometimes croon
It's hard. Sometimes
I feel the pulse
panic at your neck.
Always, in the end
I walk out the door
to your wails.
Say: too much noise.
Say: talk to me!
While you scream
Listen to me!
I want you to listen!
Mouth a gaping O
of despair.
Sunday, June 9, 2024
Judges: Chapter 2
Saturday, June 8, 2024
Judges 1: In Writing
Dive
towards dry dust
demand
its blessing
well
from below and above
leap
and leave the tired animal
behind
Friday, June 7, 2024
Judges: Chapter 1
Start the after
we go up, we go down
jostled together.
Give me your blessing!
All we don't have
pressing against us
unwanted intimacy
lodged in our throat
as we spin, again and again.
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The chapter begins "after the death of Joshua."It is both a continuation and a reprise, revisiting events that took place in the era of Joshua to create a bridge into this new reality. It is indeed a new reality of leadership, and the transformation is made apparent almost immediately. "Who shall go up for us initially, to fight the Cannanites?" (Judges 1: 1) the nation asks, searching for a new leader. ""Judah shall go up" (1:2) God answers, shifting the focus from individual to tribe. Relationships have now become fraternal rather than hierarchal ("Judah said to his brother"), as leadership disseminates within the tribal structure. Key events of the story of Joshua are retold within this new framework: the story of the conquest of Hebron the story of the conquest of Hebron is retold, yet this time with the focus on Judah, rather than the heroic Caleb. Here, it is the tribe that grants Caleb his inheritance, rather than the man who leads the tribe. as the leader is subsumed within his tribe. Only one individual still is given a central place: Otniel ben Knaz, conquerer of Debir, who fairytale-like, is granted Ahsa as his wife, in a passage is lifted almost verbatim from the account in Joshua. As in Joshua, Ahsa demands a "blessing" of her father, in the only piece of individual dialogue, and is granted the "upper and lower waters".
The reprise of the list of conquered and unconquered areas builds a precarious bridge to a new, dangerous era. The list of conquests is matched by a negative list of "not conquest", as the Canaanites "are resolved to dwell in that land" (1: 27). Even when the sons of Joseph manage to conquer Luz, they are haunted by a negative shadow of Luz, created by the Cannanites that left: "and the man named the city Luz, which is its name to this very day" (1:26). Rather than a triumphant settlement of the "land resting from war" that is the refrain of Joshua, we are presented with a tension-filled subjugation and uneasy coexistence. At the closing of the chapter, the negative refrain of "did not inherit" (lo horish) turns into active dispossession, as the tribe of Dan is driven off its land and into the mountains. Is this what will happen to all?
Hello to Judges
Me, years later, far less sure of myself, and the continuation of this project. But here is to trying a new book.
For Judges, I chose to use a limited palette of acrylic markers (reds, blues, white). Using markers continues the visual language of Joshua, just as the opening of Judges overlaps and continues the Book of Joshua.
The introduction of more colors indicates the more variegated leadership and social structure, as the strong central leadership of Moses and Joshua break down to the local tribal leadership of the judges.
The brown paper of the notebook echoes the paper I used for the book of Exodus, which is appropriate for this book of nation formation, which represents a kind of closure to the process begun in Egypt.
Here's to new beginnings!