A greater intimacy
Raise the memory
The leftovers connect...
[For full chapter, click here
The move from animal to meal offering creates a change of ambiance. From primordial "adam," we now speak of a nefesh, a soul, a life force, and then shift into direct address: "if you bring." This greater intimacy is not only between the one who brings the offering, and God, but also with the priests. Suddenly they too become integral parts of this relationship, with the leftovers, the notar, going to them, as part of "the most holy offering" to God]
Monday, June 30, 2014
Friday, June 27, 2014
Leviticus: Chapter 1
When Man comes close,
come with animal
Calling from the door
Come close to the door
Emanating outward,
approaching inward
Choose the path and come in desire
[For full chapter, click here
Exodus closes with God's Presence descending on the Tent of Meeting. Now the Tend of Meeting is active, and God "calls" to Moses from within. This first communication shares some of the elements of the creation of the Dwelling: a focus on the liminal space of the "doorway"; an interaction of human choice and desire (ratzon) and God's definitive command. The key word is korban/karov "to come close". The repeated phrases are the anaphora "if from x is his offering"--highlighting the space for choice--and the closing refrain "for a pleasing fragrance to God"--highlighting the relationship.
But there is also a change of ambiance and tone. From speaking of "men" and "women" (ish, isha, nashim), we have moved to the primordial name of the species--Adam, human, earth creature: "if an adam should bring an offering." If in Exodus, the offerings were of creativity, human-as-artist, here the offerings are of blood and guts, human as animal, The Dwelling, once activated, seems to call to the most primal elements of humanity. Echoing in the background is Abel's first offering of "firstborn sheep," which were accepted]
Labels:
commentary,
drawing,
Eden,
korbanot,
Leviticus,
Mishkan,
Tabernacle
Hello Leviticus
I think a part of me didn't believe I would finish Exodus. This was the first time I didn't have a notebook waiting in the margins...
I completed Exodus, and headed to the art supply store with a vision of the perfect Leviticus notebook in my head: A small square black notebook had once found in Paris. My drawing tool would be the white conte pencil I had left over, along with a wax white watercolor pencil I had picked up in Paris at the same time as the mythic notebook
The idea is as follows:
I want to continue with the primal feel of Genesis/Exodus by continuing the monochrome theme
In Exodus, I had been using black and white conte crayon on brown paper. I found that in the course of the drawings, white had become my symbol for the presence of God--the Pillar of Fire and the Cloud were always the brightest spots in the drawing. So I thought: Leviticus, which deals with the Tabernacle, should be drawn completely in white, using a black paper for the darks. It would also add a drawing challenge of reversing my thinking, to mark the lights instead of the shadows. The square format would offer a compositional challenge.
Alas, it is not a good idea to have too clear an image of what you want. There was no such notebook to be found. After going through four art supply shops--3 in Jerusalem, one in Tel Aviv, I finally compromised. Here is my notebook--nice, thick black paper, as desired, but rectangular rather than square:
I even got a white pen for taking notes...
But by the time I finally got the notebook it was time to pack for my trip to the States. So here I am, days later, uploading my first Leviticus chapter from NYC. It's a good start to my trip.... :)
Thinking in white has been a challenge. Hope I will get more adept as I continue....
I completed Exodus, and headed to the art supply store with a vision of the perfect Leviticus notebook in my head: A small square black notebook had once found in Paris. My drawing tool would be the white conte pencil I had left over, along with a wax white watercolor pencil I had picked up in Paris at the same time as the mythic notebook
The idea is as follows:
I want to continue with the primal feel of Genesis/Exodus by continuing the monochrome theme
In Exodus, I had been using black and white conte crayon on brown paper. I found that in the course of the drawings, white had become my symbol for the presence of God--the Pillar of Fire and the Cloud were always the brightest spots in the drawing. So I thought: Leviticus, which deals with the Tabernacle, should be drawn completely in white, using a black paper for the darks. It would also add a drawing challenge of reversing my thinking, to mark the lights instead of the shadows. The square format would offer a compositional challenge.
Alas, it is not a good idea to have too clear an image of what you want. There was no such notebook to be found. After going through four art supply shops--3 in Jerusalem, one in Tel Aviv, I finally compromised. Here is my notebook--nice, thick black paper, as desired, but rectangular rather than square:
I even got a white pen for taking notes...
But by the time I finally got the notebook it was time to pack for my trip to the States. So here I am, days later, uploading my first Leviticus chapter from NYC. It's a good start to my trip.... :)
Thinking in white has been a challenge. Hope I will get more adept as I continue....
Sunday, June 22, 2014
Goodbye to Exodus
“And these are the names of the children of Israel who went
to Egypt with Jacob, each with his family… Joseph and all his brothers and all
that generation died, and the Israelites were exceedingly fruitful; they
multiplied greatly, and increased in numbers” Those opening verses set into
place the themes of the Book of Names (the Hebrew name of Exodus) as a whole.
We have moved from the primordial, archetypal Genesis, that deals with the
creation of the individual identity, of the self. Now we must find a name for
the nameless masses, the meaning of the self within the context of the many.
The book of Genesis deals with the “chronicles of Man as he
was being created.” It revolves around the interrelationship of the individual
with the world. Its central metaphor is hands: how do we handle and manipulate our environment.
The key repeating phrase is “ve-yishlach yado—to send forth the hand”: “And
now, lest he send forth his hand and eat from the tree of life” introduced the
exile from Eden; “Do not send forth your hand against the boy” closes the
demand for the sacrifice of Isaac; “I told you not to send forth your hand
against the youth” Reuben cries after the sale of Joseph. Letting go versus
holding on; learning how to relate to Other. The book revolves around ever-intensifying
painful relations between sibling and sibling, and man and woman: the two main
patterns of Otherness. It closes with Joseph’s acceptance of the wrong his
brothers have done him; balanced by Judah’s acceptance of the fact that Rachel—and
only Rachel—holds Jacob's heart. The self has learned to accept the independence
of other.
Exodus is the next stage. Having moved beyond the placement of
self within family (Genesis), we now
begin to deal with the birth of a nation. And it is a unique story of
nationhood that begins in being stripped of all elements of identity. This is
the faceless generation that has no land and has no name, birthing “like
animals.” It is a story of nationhood that begins in powerlessness.
Yet the painful
acceptance of otherness that introduces this story opens the possibility of a different
mode of identity. Not the certainty of power and choice, but relationship
to absolute Other—God. The key images of
this book are “eyes” and “ears”; to “see” “hear” “smell”: from a focus on the
hands, we move to a focus on the face. This is the book of learning to
communicate “face to face.” Moses, the liminal figure who is “drawn from the
waters” remaining always “on the banks” between heaven and earth ,God and man,
is central for this connection.
For it is not a simple process. Rather, it requires
transformations on both sides. “What shall I say Your name is?” Moses asks, and
God changes names within communication—from the impersonal “powers” (Elohim)
to the “Almighty power” (el shaddai) to the God of history who will “be
what He will be”, and who bears a personal
Name. Israel also is transformed, in a protracted year-long process. The Exodus
is dominated by birth-imagery: from the preternatural fecundity of the opening
chapter, to the bloody doorways that birth the nation, to the passage through
the waters that spits the despairing slaves out on the other side as a free people.
“My firstborn child, Israel” “opens the womb,” and all that “open the womb”,
whether human or animal, are consecrated. Birthing a child begins a process. The opening
of the womb of the Sea of Reeds is followed by the “testing” of the terrible twos: tantrums about food and attention, doubts about love.
The parent-child imagery becomes entwined with metaphors of
infatuation and young love (maybe they are not so far apart as we think…) Not
for nothing did the prophets describe the Exodus as “the grace of your youth,
the love of your bridal days. You followed Me through the wilderness, in an
untamed land.” The passage through the wilderness is a dance of approach and
retreat, closeness and distance. The lead-up to Sinai is accompanied by a
demand for greater and greater closeness, coupled with existential uncertainty:
“Is God amongst us or nothingness?” Again and again, God imposes boundaries,
which Israel “test”: “and they gazed upon God and ate and drank.” Yet consummation (both meanings) breeds not
certainty, but the need for distance and escape. The relationship is too
overbearing, a complete crushing of the self. “Speak you to us, but let not God
speak to us lest we die.” In the aftermath of Sinai, we begin the translation
of God to humanity, bringing God down to earth.
The creation of the Dwelling is a myse-en-abyme for the
book as a whole, a point-counterpoint of self and other, closeness and
distance, the accommodation (in both senses!) of God an humanity.
We begin with God’s “pattern,” his “command” to Moses. This is vision dominated
by the unified keruvim, locked together, but forever apart, each on a separate
side. This must pass through the prism of Bezalel, who will translate it into
physicality. Yet the translation of revelation into material brings a counter
movement from Israel, who rush in to create the Golden Calf—an attempt at
complete closeness, without the burden and threat of Other.
Moses once again steps into the breach.He brings God to acknowlege that “no man can see My face and live.” The relationship to
humanity must be slant, to the back, rather than direct revelation. Thus, He accedes
to Moses' request for forgiveness “You must walk within us.” God will indeed “be
what He will be,” revealed in the walking, in the process, rather than directly.
This opens a space for human action, and in the next
chapter, the people begin to build the Dwelling, transforming God’s vision with
their own desires and “hearts.” Moses stands at the center, uniting their disparate
parts back to the initial ideal that “he had seen on the mountain.”
The book closes when the pieces come together, and the
Dwelling suddenly ignites, “a pillar of fire by night.” There is a synergy in
the growth of a nation. In the end, the whole is greater than the sum of separate parts, greater than the individuals who dominated the Book of Genesis. Moses cannot even enter the
Dwelling that he created. This allows a new unity of God and humanity. Not the painful
separated unity of the keruvim, who are of “a single mass,” gazing at
each other, but divided by the breath of their wings. Rather, it is a unity that
comes of “walking together”: “when the
cloud rose, the people would rise and travel.” In the year that followed the birthing of the nation in the womb of Egypt, a new relationship has been built. "For the cloud of God dwelt above the Dwelling by day, and fire was over it by night, in the sight of all the house of Israel, throughout all their journeys." God and humanity journey together, within "sight" of each other, essentially unknown and Other, but fully present.
The Learning Curve: On the Importance of Goodbye
This Bibliodraw project has been a sink-or-swim, learn as
you go.
One of my learning curves has been my growing awareness of
the need for closure. Not for nothing has there been a tradition of holding a siyum,
a completion ceremony, for every finished unit of learning. Completing a
part is not the same as completing a whole. Each stage needs to be acknowledged,
reviewed, and incorporated into the next.
On completing Genesis, I felt the sense of wholeness-that
the book had a unity from beginning to end, that my understanding at the
closing was far more complex and deep than the sum of the different chapters. Thoughts
were spinning in my head:
- Make a drawing/painting/artwork about the book as a whole.
- Write up a siyum, bringing together the various patterns and insights
Each idea seemed right; each seemed enticing. Seemed
time-consuming.
On the other side was the imperative: Don’t stop. Keep up
with the momentum. If you’ve completed Genesis, start Exodus—today!
So I did, pushing the big ideas to the side, for later, and
jumping into the next book.
There were advantages to this: I started right away, without
the three day break I've had with the closing of Exodus. But there were also
disadvantages. My head was still in Genesis. I resented the change of ambiance
and tone. I kept looking for the archetypal primordial personalities of Genesis
in the teeming masses of Exodus.
And on the other side: when I finally got into Exodus, the need
to create a closing for Genesis faded. “Later” never came. I have yet to type
up my thoughts on Genesis; the closing
collage I planned is still sitting on my desk.
So this time I would like to try something else.
If there is something I have learned in the course of this
project is “perfect is the enemy of done.” I do want to create a closing piece,
but I also want to keep up the Bibliodraw momentum. So I’m going to try a compromise. A quick Siyum, summarizing
my sense of the book as a whole. A concentrate of my main insights, to be expanded
upon when time and space provide. And a closure, which will hopefully release me to move on to
Levitucus without feeling torn.
So here it comes… an unedited, freewrite Goodbye to Exodus
Thursday, June 19, 2014
Exodus: Chapter 40
When the sum becomes
greater than the parts
A cloud of completion
A canon of connection
To move together
rising in response
[For full chapter, click here
We
have reached the grand finale of Exodus.
“On
the first day of the first month you shall put together the Dwelling.” Exactly one year has
passed since that fateful day when God first spoke to the “entire congregation
of Israel,” “This month shall be to you
the head of all months, the first of the months of the year.” What a distance
has been traversed! From the initial commandment to set aside a
private space, marking of the doorways of the home, we have come to create a
sacred space, that can allow the Presence of God. The initial glimmerings of a
sense of community--“and if the household be
too little for a lamb, then shall he and his neighbour (lit. near-dweller shakhen) shall take one according to the number of the souls”—is here transformed
into a Dwelling-Mishkan for God, a community with the divine.
These
final chapter of building the Dwelling are like a repetitive canon, growing
in intensity. Command, execution, command,
and now, finally, activation, the bringing together. After the completion of the “work” (asiya) of
Bezalel and the people begins the work (asiya) of Moses, the
integrator who connects the disparate chaotic pieces “as God commanded, so
Moses did.” And with the coming together, the whole becomes far greater than the
sum of its parts: “And the cloud covered the Tent of Meeting, and the glory of God
filled (mila—a return of that pivotal word!) the Dwelling, and Moses was
unable to enter the tent, because [the cloud] dwelt (shakhen) on it, and
the Glory of God filled the Dwelling (Mishkan).”
With
the activation of the Dwelling, the communion with God becomes complete; God
and Israel become a single system. “If You will not walk with us, do not take
us up (ta-alenu) from here” Moses said. Now God indeed "walks among." The problematic up-down motion of
Sinai and the Golden Calf here finally becomes synchronized: God “takes us up”: “And whenever the cloud rose (be-ha-a lot) from the Dwelling,
the children of Israel journeyed, throughout all their journeys.” And God is there, "a pillar of fire... to the sight of all Israel, throughout their journeys"]
Labels:
Bezalel,
commentary,
drawing,
Exodus,
Mishkan,
Moses,
Tabernacle
Tuesday, June 17, 2014
Exodus 39: In Writing
A fugue of us
Of I, Thou, Him
Thou he I
He I Thou
Thou I he
I he Thou
Doing saying
Command and consummation
interwoven in threads of gold
a rising waveExodus: Chapter 39
Bring together
Interwoven in gold
The blessing that
The blessing that
comes at completion
[For full chapter, click here
The creation of the Dwelling continues. From
the outer structure, we moved to the sanctuary gold, then outwards to the
courtyard of bronze. This chapter incorporates the human component, with the creation
of the priestly garments. Once again, translation is also transformation. Here,
the gold of the sanctuary is actually incorporated into the clothing: "they did beat the gold into thin plates, and cut it
into threads, to work it in the blue, and in the purple, and in the scarlet,
and in the fine linen". The priests become the nerve system
of the Dwelling,
connecting the internal and external space. The chaotic
human involvement is
emphasized: The ephod "carries"--as
commanded--"the name of the children of Israel." However, no longer
is it specified that they are listed by a hierarchical order of birth. Rather it is simply the
individualized "each according to his name."
The chapter closes with the Children of
Israel “bringing together” all the components to Moses. He acts as the unifying force,
the vision. The disparate is interwoven in a catalog, that climaxes with an emphasized verbal fugue connecting the initial
vision and the earthly doing, with Moses at the center as intermediary: “According
to all that God commanded Moses, so the children of Israel did the work…And
Moses saw all the work, and, behold, they had done it as God had commanded…”
With the coming together comes blessing: “and Moses blessed them.”]Monday, June 16, 2014
Exodus 38: In Writing
All is counted and accounted
Every pulse, exhale,
betrayal
when you count the starts, the grains, the sand
the building bricks,
the crumbled straw
I croon your memory.
In the billow-bellied bronze
I see a face
rush forward to meet me
arms greet me
wash me in your waters
into you I dissolve
inseparable, inextricable
a void of absence
I am that I am
Call me by name
Splash to my shape
Find yourself in a shadowed mirror
A longing echo, calling your name
Exodus: Chapter 38
To count
Account
Remember
Meet yourself at the entrance
Coming towards you
[For full chapter, click here
We continue the actual construction of the Dwelling, moving out from the furnishings of the inner Sanctum to the outer courtyard, marked by the use of bronze and silver, rather than gold. Again, the execution ("and Bezalel did") transforms the initial vision ("as God commanded Moses"), as the people bring theere own drives and desires. The laver is made of "the mirrors of the serving women that did service at the door of the tent of meeting." The gifts that create the Dwelling come also from the discounted classes: women--and serving women at that. What is more, the gifts are not homogenized: we know which specific objects create the laver. The people brings "mirrors," reflecting their own desires and involvement, and these gifts retain their presence within the completed Dwelling, as a kind of incorporated found object. The material changes the piece.
The chapter closes with an "accounting" (pikudei) of all the materials that went into the dwelling. No gift is lost, everything is given its place.
This laden leitwort also creates an arch connecting the beginning of this book towards its end. "I have surely remembered you--pakod pakadeti" is God's initial message to the children of Israel: you have been taken into account and will be redeemed. But this retained memory is a double edged sword, that also implies consequence and accountability. In the aftermath of the Golden Calf, God is "poked--accounts the inquiry of the fathers on the sons," and the nation's sin will continued to be held in account: "beyom pokdi u-pakadeti--on the day that there is an accounting, I will account their sin on them." Now, we make an accounting of the Dwelling. "Pakod"--"memory, accounting" implies continuity, care. It is the source of relationship, both for redemption and anger]
Account
Remember
Meet yourself at the entrance
Coming towards you
[For full chapter, click here
We continue the actual construction of the Dwelling, moving out from the furnishings of the inner Sanctum to the outer courtyard, marked by the use of bronze and silver, rather than gold. Again, the execution ("and Bezalel did") transforms the initial vision ("as God commanded Moses"), as the people bring theere own drives and desires. The laver is made of "the mirrors of the serving women that did service at the door of the tent of meeting." The gifts that create the Dwelling come also from the discounted classes: women--and serving women at that. What is more, the gifts are not homogenized: we know which specific objects create the laver. The people brings "mirrors," reflecting their own desires and involvement, and these gifts retain their presence within the completed Dwelling, as a kind of incorporated found object. The material changes the piece.
The chapter closes with an "accounting" (pikudei) of all the materials that went into the dwelling. No gift is lost, everything is given its place.
This laden leitwort also creates an arch connecting the beginning of this book towards its end. "I have surely remembered you--pakod pakadeti" is God's initial message to the children of Israel: you have been taken into account and will be redeemed. But this retained memory is a double edged sword, that also implies consequence and accountability. In the aftermath of the Golden Calf, God is "poked--accounts the inquiry of the fathers on the sons," and the nation's sin will continued to be held in account: "beyom pokdi u-pakadeti--on the day that there is an accounting, I will account their sin on them." Now, we make an accounting of the Dwelling. "Pakod"--"memory, accounting" implies continuity, care. It is the source of relationship, both for redemption and anger]
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)