Genesis 22: In Writing

This chapter is haunting.
We have the first call by name, followed by the first use of the word "love."

...and He said "Abraham"

and he said "here I am"

and He said: Take please your son

your only

whom you love

Isaac

and go for you to the land of Moria

and offer him up as an ascension offering on one of the hills that I will tell you (Genesis 22: 1-2)

Don't know where to begin with the writing. So am just going to let it go in a somewhat formless series of musings:

How long till the discovery of love?

We have knowledge, deep and intimate

but love is born at the moment of loss

at the edge of being

where things teeter on nothingness

Eros and thanatos

I love you as I lose you

You become forever

alone

unique 

beloved

at the moment that you are also not-mine

                              ***

You call my name

and I am here

fully present 

within your gaze

beloved

can I be here without you

be father without you son

we are here

together

at the edges of being

where my hand reaches forth

to take what is not mine

in the terrible grasping

from which only one returns